Sunday, June 10, 2007

Wow, was I wrong.

Recently I've had a number of conversations go sour on me...people taking friendships for granted, people taking the 'friendship-of-convenience' route (i.e...since I don't live in Rochester now...the friendship isn't important to them), and some discussions that have become unreasonable even in the face of evidence (generally people making science their religion, even when their position has been proven incorrect in science).

That all wore me out emotionally, in all honesty...and took a lot of joy out of my relationships, discussions, and study.

How dare real life get in the way of my agendas? How dare a messed up world act messed up? How dare a people in sin behave badly?

What an idiot I have been for expecting things in the world to go my way or even a sensible way. The sermon at church this morning reminded me about the nature of things. Wisdom leads to suffering, as does leadership. This is something apparently that I've forgotten when I decided that I wanted things to go my way and be non-stressful.

I apologize to the true friends who stick by me.


  1. I just listened to the last couple of weeks' sermons (the last one ending with Kara) the other day and am looking forward to hearing Sunday's as well... and then maybe I'll have more to say about this... but your comments made me remember a similar awakening I had to go through a while back when I felt like most of my friends let me down when I needed them the most...

  2. Many of my 'old' friends are still letting me down, unfortunately. Not that my momentary lapse of reason that gave me the idea of giving up on them wasn't was wrong. But the disrespect, lack of concern, and abandonment is not only hurtful...but ridiculous. They know what they do and try to justify it, and make their disdain my fault.

    It seems to me from these people's actions that they only care when it is convenient for them to care.